Someone asked me

Someone asked me
If you could change anything about yourself
What would it be?
I said I didn't know
Because I didn't realize I was supposed
To have something I wanted to change
I didn't realize that I supposed to be unhappy
With the things I'm made up of.
But I told them
I'd change the way I sound
Because maybe then people would listen.

Someone asked me
If you could have a super power
What would it be
I laughed and said
I don't need a super power
To be invisible
Because it
Isn't something you practice at
It isn't something you get good at
If I could have a super power
I would want to be able to see
Those people
And not just look at them.

Someone asked me
If you could make a change
What would it be
I said
I would change priority
Because
It's seems that we are objectifying important people
And personifying useless objects.
And I don't know if it's our generation
Or the one that raised us
But I know that something about that isn't right.
And it's gotta stop.

Please,

Make it stop.

Soles

Because shoes,
Like humans

Look pretty

And sometimes they don't fit
Sometimes the tongue is
Bigger than we can help
And all together we can look
A little worn
A little torn

Shoes got soles
And we got souls 

And sometimes
It's not the shoes that's worn out
But the souls
Of the people who walk in them

 

Charlie

Once
Someone told me I was bad at hugging
so I stopped
I stopped giving hugs
because I didn't want to be told that again
I even looked up on wiki-how
"how to hug"
so that just in case I had to hug again
I might be a little more prepared

Once
I was told on my birthday
by some 10th grade 'royalty'
that I didn't matter
but I simply told them I did
and walked away
but since that day
I don't talk to 'royalty'
especially on my birthday.

Once
I decided I was for love
and I told her about my love
but because best friends
don't make the best of lovers
I was left with nothing
and I wish I would've said nothing
because maybe now things
could be different

Once
I posted this video of my singing
and Nelson played it
for both classes
and I was so embarrassed
because I didn't think anyone
would really listen to it
so I deleted it
because I never really liked
my own voice

Once
I made this blog named
Charlie Laurent
and it got way more emotional than
I thought it would
And I don't let a lot of people in
and I ask you to please
know me as I am

So now you know me as

the boy who wont hug
or
the boy who doesn't like his birthday
or
the boy who can't talk about love
or
the boy who loves to sing but wont

and the thing about Charlie Laurent 

Is that he wants to be known
for who he really is

but you see even if all these sad things say a lot about me,
I made the choice a while ago
to be happy, and I am.



and I will continue to be happy



and I know this isn't the most spectacular of reveals
and I had no intention of competing with
Maddie Wheadon or Landon Hall
but I just wanted to say
I'm Caleb Miller
and I am Happy.

The Sea Allegory

Nights grow darker
days get longer
trees reach higher
And the seas sink deeper
and deeper
deeper
and all this time I'm feeling
that maybe I missed something along the way.
or maybe I just miss you.
Because everyone here is falling in love with fish
but I'm afraid I fell in love with the sea.
Because it was the only thing that pulled back when I went fishing.
And I could've sworn I heard the moon laughing at me
Because of how foolish it is to feel this way.
But I just sat and laughed with him
Because I knew he meant no harm by it
And I could tell the sea was smiling
By how gently it rose
And how soft it called
And when the sun came up
He was glad to see I had made it through the
Darkest of nights
And the longest of days
And the trees were happy to know that I had grown taller
And the sea was happy
To feel that I had fallen deeper
And deeper
Deeper
In love.

I'll Just Have to Find Out

 

 

I've never been good at confrontation,
and I don't really plan to anytime soon,
but I'm really one of those quiet lovers.
who doesn't get the words
quit right. 
and I'm not sure I ever will.
I've always kind of just sat and watched
and loved from afar
because when she looks that happy,
and I see that smile,
I smile.
But I can't say I feel happy.



Sometimes things start to pile up, 
things like
never kissed
never had a girlfriend
never been popular
never never never


and all these "never"s make you feel
like maybe something is wrong with you.
and tonight is just one of those nights
where you're not exactly sure how to feel
and you know that you'll be okay
just not today
or tomorrow
but one day you'll be okay

and maybe on one of these days 

I'll confront you,

I'll fight for you,

I'll tell you.

and maybe nothing will happen

but maybe everything will happen

I'll just have to find out.

Undergods

Because

 the underdogs need someone

who will root for them,

and I always will.

because I believe in fighters

and in the quiet lovers

and in the bad test takers

and in the sad teachers

and in the star gazers

and in the mad preachers

and I believe in the kids on the bleachers,

because that's where I am.

shouting at the top of my lungs

for the guy in my class who comes in everyday

hoping no one sees his tears

because men don't cry

for the girl who walks around the school alone

counting her steps in each concrete slab

as well has her reasons to live

for the boy in elementary who was called gay

because he likes flowers

and he picks them for his mother

I'm shouting for the underdogs

because I see myself in them

and we are all unfinished miracles

waiting for the right moment

to show everyone what we got

and all these underdogs,

or maybe I should say

undergods,

are fighting 

and fighting

and fighting

For a chance to be recognized 

As something greater

Than a textbook nobody.

and I'll be

yelling

cheering

shouting

because its the last quarter

And you've given your all

and you're doing great

and you always will.

My Darling

My darling
Don't be afraid
Of all you can become

Please be who you were born to be,
and don't be scared of the pretty faces,
Don't be scared to tell them what you feel
  and don't be afraid to feel

Please,

I ask you to feel.

...
My darling
Don't be afraid of things that haven't happened
Because the scariest things
Have already come and gone
And you can stop worrying if I'll ever leave
Because I'm here to stay

to be with you

always.

...
My darling
You can stop pulling the sheets over your head

and crying behind closed doors to hide

those beautiful swollen eyes
and you don't have to be afraid
Of smiling anymore,
Because you have the most beautiful smile
And out of 7 billion,
Yours is my favorite.

...
My darling
Don't be scared of the things your heart has to say
Because words of love were never meant to be feared
And after you speak don't be scared
To hear your heart break.
Because it might be for the best now 

than to have it broken

when there is nothing left to break.

And don't be afraid to let your heart mend
My darling,

Let it mend

...