I'll Just Have to Find Out

 

 

I've never been good at confrontation,
and I don't really plan to anytime soon,
but I'm really one of those quiet lovers.
who doesn't get the words
quit right. 
and I'm not sure I ever will.
I've always kind of just sat and watched
and loved from afar
because when she looks that happy,
and I see that smile,
I smile.
But I can't say I feel happy.



Sometimes things start to pile up, 
things like
never kissed
never had a girlfriend
never been popular
never never never


and all these "never"s make you feel
like maybe something is wrong with you.
and tonight is just one of those nights
where you're not exactly sure how to feel
and you know that you'll be okay
just not today
or tomorrow
but one day you'll be okay

and maybe on one of these days 

I'll confront you,

I'll fight for you,

I'll tell you.

and maybe nothing will happen

but maybe everything will happen

I'll just have to find out.